We just know Part 2

I had a good sleep, when I woke up it was already 10. Gin was not at the next bed, must have gone diving. I laid there on the bed recalling what happened last night, was it a dream or did it really happen? Dam marijuana. 

I got up and changed and left the room with my phone and the paperback I had yet to finish. I decided not to call Dor yet. I sat there at the corner and ordered my ala carte breakfast. I opened the book and thought I can have a me-time for a while. The thoughts of last night, of Dor came interrupting. When I looked at my watch, for the past 10 minutes I was holding my book, I was reading the same line over and over. 

Suddenly there was a voice behind me. "Hey, why didnt wake me?" 

Sigh, I really dont know how to reply or what to say. I really like him. I do. But it just felt so wrong. 

He : Hey, where is the Cordon Bleu?

Me: Ermm, I'm not drinking today.

He: I'm just asking, not asking you to drink. Why? You scared of me?

Damn, I felt myself blushing. And we just continue talking and eating. 

When the both of them came up after their first dive of the day, Beetee asked why arent we drinking. And Dor went back to get the bottle out. After 2 glasses, Beetee & Gin went back to dive. We continued. This time we drank at the beach, with my mp3 on. 

We got crazy again... I felt so comfortable beside him. Then I pulled him up asked him to dance with me. WTF. I think I'm really drunk. He did entertain me, though. Then I felt a little tired, I hugged him, rested my head on his shoulder. Wow, what was I thinking. He didnt pushed me away. He held me back. It felt so nice. And then again, we were being interrupted by a phone call. We split, he answered his call. Then the both came up, we went back to bathe and got ready for dinner. 

We didnt really talked about what happened. It seemed like we have an understanding that it will never happen. We know there is a bond, but no way we are going further. Why is it that something so wrong can feel so right. I so want to be alone with him. I just felt nice being in his arms...

Nothing did happened, Nothing will happen. 

We just know Part 1

I have always wanted to get away from work for a while. So Gin organised a diving trip. I tagged along. Even Beetee and Dor came. Dor agreed that we stay on shore, relax & drink while both of them go diving.

I was kinda excited. Going out with friends. As planned, after their dive in the day, we had dinner and then followed by drinks that we BYO. We drank a lot. I always believe it's the company that matters. We had so much fun, and this will last for the next 3 more days. 

On the second day, Dor & I didnt wait for them. We started earlier ourselves while they dive. By dinner time, I was already high. We laughed so much and I can't really remember what shit we talked about. 

God knows where Beetee found marijuana. We all took a stick and enjoyed. We laughed extra much, talked extra loud. I really don't know what it was we were laughing about. All 4 of us were at our happiest. Towards later, Gin fell asleep on the bench. Left the 3 of us. I then realised that my keys were missing. Looked high and low for it, but still can't find. I needed to go to the front desk to get a new set. 

Dor walked me there, as he thought I might not be able to make it back. I couldnt walk straight. he held my arms. We were laughing and walking zig-zag. The journey seemed longer than usual. And then, I tripped on some stones, and found myself against the wall. Dor stopped right in front of me. He was so close, he looked into my eyes. I looked back. Somehow, the marijuana made everything else disappear. I could only felt his presence. 

There were no movement. We were both like statues at the walkway. I was breathing so loudly, I think he can hear me. Things in my mind were all so wrong, things I shouldn't even be thinking. As we were close to having things done wrongly, my phone rang. It brought us back to reality. It was Beetee, asking why we were so long. We quickly went to collect the keys and back to meet them. 

As we reached, I told them that I was tired and needed to go back to rest.